love isn't real

Often I am upset That I cannot fall in love but I guess This avoids the stress of falling out of it Love isn't real What's the big deal That's how I feel Will I be healed Everyone's been looking my way While I've been trying to put a fake smile on my face Now I just feel like I'm a disgrace I've been trying to go on all of these dates But they end up all being the same I'm just hoping something will change I'm just trying to be embraced Sadly love is just one big game I've been hiding the shame and fighting the pain Will I be saved I'm just really afraid I'm just trying to be brave I used to think about my mom and dad when I thought about love Cause it seemed like no matter what happened they always made it above But now they getting ready to split I guess this is really the end Now I'm just wondering Was it even worth it All of the long nights All of these stupid fights So let me be clear You're just telling me that over the years the love that y'all had for each other was never real Maybe that's what I need to feel Someone who's gonna love me So I can be healed Yeah Often I am upset That I cannot fall in love but I guess This avoids the stress of falling out of it Look I've been feeling the worst Because all of the hurt I just got it all built up and it feels like I'm about to burst But I've been putting the fake smile on my face to hide All of the pain All of the shame But I know that deep down inside I've been singing Love isn't real What's the big deal That's how I feel Will I be healed Everyone's been looking my way While I've been trying to put a fake smile on my face Now I just feel like I'm a disgrace That I'm a disgrace Ya