Rowdy

Baby I'm working I'm tryna get through this The moment I leave you Is the moment I need you Alone in the Darkness The liquor is drowning My thoughts and I'm cloudy So I'll start a fight cause I feel like I'm rowdy It's the morning after It must've been a long night I really can't remember, but I think there might've been a fight My hands hurt My knuckles look like they were bleeding There's holes in the walls It must've been my demons Was I screaming? You finally put me in my place There's a bruise on my face And I think that I can taste dried blood on my lips My life is going down It's a struggle baby, trust, when I don't have you around I'm sorry for the ways I didn't trust or believe I'm sorry for the ways that I always caused grief I'm sorry for the hurt that you felt because of me I know I was to selfish, but I'm beggin on my knees Baby please If we had another chance Maybe baby, I could change and maybe we could dance In the moonlight Rain beating on my face But you're not here and I'll never be the same Baby I'm working I'm tryna get through this The moment I leave you Is the moment I need you Alone in the Darkness The liquor is drowning My thoughts and I'm cloudy So I'll start a fight cause I feel like I'm rowdy I'm thinking as I'm drinking I'm half a bottle down In my chair, I don't care cause I don't have you around Not a sound Tears silent as the wind blows Trees creak as the sleep, battling my window Pinholes in decisions in my life that I've made Shine light on mistakes in my life that I make If I could take it back, rewind the hands on fate I would change, but I can't And I know it's too late Cause I'm toxic I fucking drink until I sleep Pass out, wake up, this is my life on repeat Every time I speak the words come wrong It's the same old song with a brand new beat Forget me and the secrets that I keep Forget the pain I've caused and the love there used to be Walk away from everything And throw it all away It's ok, I just pray that I'll see you when I sleep Baby I'm working I'm tryna get through this The moment I leave you Is the moment I need you Alone in the Darkness The liquor is drowning My thoughts and I'm cloudy So I'll start a fight cause I feel like I'm rowdy If I hang on to this Would you hang on to me? And I won't get through this, so screw this, I'll do this Just say goodbye to me Struggle with thoughts in my head I feel like I'm sinking, so I'll just keep drinking and thinking What the f*ck happened to me?