please break for me

I sit alone on my living room chair Twitching my cheek and clenching my hair I feel the bone of my finger on tight I wish it would break just once or twice Here I cry help with a painted red face Cursing myself without traces of grace Thousands of words hailing down on the ice I wish it would break just once or twice Please break for me Please break for me Envying ghosts for the way that they look Sending them notes for a place in their book I'd float away in a heartbeat tonight I wish it would break just once or twice Holding my shame tightly close to my chest Molding my brain to dismantle the rest I have a plate that reminds me of Christ I wish it would break just once or twice Please break for me Please break for me Hiding my face from the woman I've met Losing my dignity along with the bet There's been a pattern of falling from heights I wish it would break just once or twice Let me forget, and let her do the same Give her distractions and take me away I'm too far gone for a word of advice I wish I would break just once or twice