Cold Truth

Thinking about the past Always really sad even when i was such a young kid Never Really Felt like i was Gonna Be Nothing when i got older But by the time when i was ten i lost my dad to prison that was one of the most toughest Times even i was just barely growing up But when i was Age twelve i felt like suicide when coming for me so i just kept pushing Myself never really thinking about until Age Thirteen i let a girl in she fucked my life up Really bad so i felt like maybe i was better off dead Until i kept pushing myself now age Fourteen i kept on going i met another Girl she almost made me happy until- Drama Came in- into her life So therefore she ended it never really excepted her to so now That I'm Fifteen years old I'm taking everything by slow by slow making every single thing that i wanted possible Coming up with a show now I'm making a bunch of songs so that i can be feel happier Each moment each time when I'm going through my mind i break down about it Making Myself think I'm gonna be happy all the time whenever I'm not so please tell me how Many times can i fake these happy Smiles and this Happy Mind Even though it's so Messed up inside I don't understand how many times can i walk around here faking Every single laugh Think everything will be different even though I know this worlds going through a lot I never took anything for granted though that's the problem that i have with almost Everything So please tell me when will this end when does this end it all Now that I'm tired of it all Don't wanna wake up just wanna sleep forever close my eyes And make sure they never open anymore Please tell me will this be the end for my Because I don't want to go into a deep abyss and keep falling down