Rewired

I been searching for months tryna find a rhyme And I been feeling like I'm being robbed of time See back in the day music came with ease Cook up a beat write the lyrics that's a breeze But writer's block has been stopping me around every corner Of something that I'm writing then I feel a disorder The mountain seems high and the valley so low And the climb really ain't worth it to me no more You see making music to me used to be my own therapy And lately I been feeling I don't need it and it's scaring me And don't get me wrong God I'm thankful for the progress Inside of my mental that you blessed me with But the reason I would write has been going away And my microphone feeling like a stowaway yeah And my soundproof wondering when it's gon' be thrown away Then I walked by my studio just the other day And I started thinking bout all of the memories And part of me started to forgive me For how hard I've always been on myself That's when I grabbed my microphone off of the shelf I put the pen to pad and started writing this song Realizing to write something don't gotta be wrong You see creativity is inside of my DNA So I'm deceiving myself if I just let that go away If I had some problems the music would come solve them At least made the pill a little easier to swallow But now I'm feeling I don't really got too many problems So inherently I'm not writing songs to dissolve them But that don't mean that I should let my voice collect dust I still got a choice and I know that I must adjust And pull from another place inside Don't gotta erase I just gotta rewire That making music don't gotta require Something in life to be catching on fire I watered it out time for a new desire I been on the fence now I'm cutting the wire I been thanking God for the life that he gave me And man I'm so thankful that he saved me Cause at times I felt like this life wasn't worth living But that's the devil speaking so you know I'd never give in Got a beautiful wife that filled a gap no one could So purpose to me is being the husband that I should But our brains always changing thoughts rearranging Problems in the world that we all gotta be facing So I can't be done music to me is a battle I been sitting it out but now I'm picking up the saddle Creativity is like a boat in the ocean I been floating away but now I'm picking up the paddle If I could go back to a younger me I'd tell him everything will be okay And if you worrying I promise it's all gonna be good But there's hard days when you ain't gon' feel like fighting It's how we handle the hard days that growth is enlightened How we get back up when the world pulls us down Keep your head up and breathe or you gonna drown In your pain but the pain goes away that's the outcome Had to drop this track while I finish up the album I'm gone