Toxic

I don't believe a word you say, you don't love me anymore Stop sparing my feelings cause I never spared yours Well you got out just in time, I gave you nothing but empty lines But they fell on good intent, hateful words that I never meant I didn't mean to break your heart Now it seems you murdered any thought of me You're strong on your own, stronger alone You realized that when our love died I wasn't the man that you romanticized I was so toxic I don't deserve an ounce of your time And the worst part of all is I was blind to it all God, take me back, I'd take back all those times The more I tried to apologized, the more I turned into the bad guy And now I'm terrified, yo're with another guy I hope he treats you better than I Cause I act out on emotion, most of which went unspoken But I still keep all my promises, like I'll never try to self-harm again I still ripped apart your already aching heart And I'm not any good at sewing I didn't mean to be so manipulative, How do I get so controlling? I was so toxic I don't deserve an ounce of your time And the worst part of all is I was blind to it all God, take me back, I'd take back all those times Now we pass each other on the streets like strangers I'll look from a far cause you still look like an angel And I hope this song reaches your ears A last attempt from a beggar who thought he had his shit together I'm sorry, I'm sorry, just please come back to me And I promise you I'll be the man that I meant to be