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I have panic attacks in the shower Since that December night Locked myself in my room for hours Thinking I would never gonna survive But when you lose someone you love You start to lose part of your mind So let's just skip to the part where One of us dies Stand atop of your shallow grave or breathe in more of your pesticide Either way this story's gonna end with a suicide Should I spray blood on the wall Or watch as your mind slowly falls Either way this story's gonna end with a homicide I have panic attacks in the hallways Since the day that you left Watched as you became depressed Just so she could entertain her guests And I think I realize why they say love is blind Two broken people don't equal a whole It just leaves one in your chest Stand atop of your shallow grave or breathe in more of your pesticide Either way this story's gonna end with a suicide Should I spray blood on the wall Or watch as your mind slowly falls Either way this story's gonna end with a homicide And can we go back to when we were young When our main concern was about getting tagged Not getting hung Oh how can I continue on without you by my side Do I wanna live do I wanna die I can't decide Stand atop of your shallow grave or breathe in more of your pesticide Either way this story's gonna end with a suicide Did we lose all the good times That we made back when we were 7, 8, and 9 Do I wanna live do I wanna die I can't decide Stand atop of your shallow grave or breathe in more of your pesticide Either way this story's gonna end with a suicide And now I'm scared of myself Because you decided to forget everyone else I did everything to make you fine But now I feel like I am not alive