BEDRIDDEN (feat. Joci Oye)

They say big girls don't cry Not gonna lie I'm struggling I'm struggling, I'm struggling Been 3 days haven't left my bed Haven't seen the light, I'm struggling Gotta get out my head I'm struggling I miss how conversations never used to be a problem I miss it when I couldn't lose a friend over a dollar I miss it when we kicked it and talked about all our problems Now I try to do it, but I feel like I'm just a bother I miss that feeling I'd get from searching for a mrs. I miss it when I called em just women instead of bitches I miss that lil thing called love But I ain't ever missed another girl enough And maybe that's my own fault Why I'm so froze hearted If you coming at my chest my brain goes "Go guard it" It's my own fault How you like me now? The kid died too quick, life's a lightning round Or maybe it's a nine mil Maybe it's a mugshot Maybe I'm just too gone off these drugs bruh That's how it gets when you run into the deep end You gotta learn to swim after you learn to jump in They say big girls don't cry Not gonna lie I'm struggling I'm struggling, I'm struggling Been 3 days haven't left my bed Haven't seen the light, I'm struggling Gotta get out my head I'm struggling Sometimes a rose won't bring her back and that's okay I think Or I didn't try enough to get her wrapped in a ring Either way I guess I'm here right now But I'd be lying if I wished I wasn't there right now Where would I be? I think about it everyday What if I went to school? What if I didn't waste A couple years looking for another smoke and drink? What if I just prayed? What if I didn't hate My own life? And I'm sorry you had to hear it Almost died a couple times But I would never let you near it I'm okay Swear I'm okay right now But it's just hard to think about another day right now And that's my own fault Maybe I'm just too guarded If you try to warm me up my chest goes froze hearted I wish I could bring it right back to where I started But trust me, it never gets less hard for the heartless They say big girls don't cry Not gonna lie I'm struggling I'm struggling, I'm struggling Been 3 days haven't left my bed Haven't seen the light, I'm struggling Gotta get out my head I'm struggling They say big girls don't cry Not gonna lie I'm struggling I'm struggling, I'm struggling Been 3 days haven't left my bed Haven't seen the light, I'm struggling Gotta get out my head I'm struggling