Carnival

Fighting with my demons that are trapped inside Looping up and down on this evil ride Feeling like a monster when I go and hide Happyness unreachable this uphill climb Blurry is my mind, you don't wanna play these games Not like Super NES, there's no princess here to save Got my mind being whipped, to these meds I am their slave Like a coin my moods flip, and these thoughts are getting grave And I don't want that, don't want my mom to have to say goodbye So I show my teeth and fake my smile so she don't ask why She shouldn't have to be a victim of my unsafe ride Feel like flying off even when the seatbelts gripping tight Tighter than the air, density, they bury me Deep within my grave, down as if I'm 6 feet deep Choking on the pressure, loud, you don't need to see Outside still remain sane, it's killing me Killing me on the inside, killing me on the outside Everyone's gonna realize, everyone's starting to ask why Why am I acting so weird, like, why are you asking me outright? Why does this conversation always have to be a fight? Fighting with my demons that are trapped inside Looping up and down on this evil ride Feeling like a monster when I go and hide Happyness unreachable this uphill climb Take a trip inside my mind just to show you what it's like Feel so distant on this ride, numbing thoughts up floating high Like the knot that I just tied when I say I'm doing fine What's the truth and what's a lie is what comes to blur the line The mimic in the mirror telling me to act right, so I Paint a smile, Joker, spread it out with a knife What goes on inside my mind, they don't see the other side Tempered thoughts on the inside, they don't need to ask why Anxiety cripples, got my mind feeling fickle Think imma meet my maker, greeting Death with his sickle But to some may be a nightmare, maybe I'm a little sicker Dreaming of a life where, maybe I can make a killing The thoughts are daunting on me, maybe I'm the villain A mosquito 'round people with their happiness I'm stealing And the pills are overpowering with their chronic symptoms But maybe I'm not broken man, maybe it's the system Fighting with my demons that are trapped inside Looping up and down on this evil ride Feeling like a monster when I go and hide Happyness unreachable this uphill climb