No Longer

I've no longer got the energy to do things I like Tip-Toe'in on these eggshells with a growing stride I'm bout to stomp 'em up, 'cuz I'm so tired of my pride Like a Zebra on my arms but, red are the stripes Crazy how my minds joyful when I'm 'round those I love- But when I'm by myself I hide alone with the closed I don't got the spirit, got an odor, need to change my clothes I'd rather take my roses now and not when the casket close Is, this depression like my friend? Pulling me ever closely to a subtle peaceful end? Telling me I'm not worth it and annoying to friends? The doc gave me pills to battle, they don't even defend So now I fight inclined addiction stuck onto these meds Breaking up all my friendships I can never amend The bridges burning ever slowly like the noose on my neck Scooting closer to the cliff jumping out to the end Got no more energy to do the things I love Got no more emotion, I admit I need a hug Got no more family, I don't care about blood And I got no drive cause I have given up Got none to live for, no meaning at all Got no friends, got no one to call Got no comfort, so I just sit and I bawl All alone in the dark 'till the pain is gone Here I go again The enemy is me The line so thin Feel so incomplete- I go again The enemy is me The line so thin Feel so incomplete Everybody takin' out sayin' that I'm toxic Takin' trips inside myself findin' where my heart is Pumpin' just to bleed, drippin' like my wrists, slit Duct tape on my heart just to try and act fixed Takin' all these pills but I keep growing symptoms Fightin' just to smile, the Devil hold's my pension On tight wages, still not paying my bills' and I'm friction welding pennies with how hard that I pinch'em Knock, Knock, Knock; I think the is'a Devil's comin' Fightin' for my soul, see if I can reach the summit Puttin' in the effort, maybe I can be somethin' Figure eight my life, cuz right now I'm still runnin' Circle laps round it all, this Citalopram is numbin' Got the high in my head, down the hall hear the hummin' Guess the Devil won the battle, on the bow I hear the strummin' Fade my eyes out to black, with the words I been mumblin' Got no more energy to do the things I love Got no more emotion, I admit I need a hug Got no more family, I don't care about blood And I got no drive cause I have given up Got none to live for, no meaning at all Got no friends, got no one to call Got no comfort, so I just sit and I bawl All alone in the dark 'till the pain is gone Here I go again The enemy is me The line so thin Feel so incomplete- I go again The enemy is me The line so thin Feel so incomplete