Anymore

One hand up to God One hand on your heart Do you swear to keep sacred what we say in your car 'Cause I'll meet you halfway If you promise to promise If you go dark on me I'd rather you be honest Had a dream that you called And it seemed like it helped Don't remember what you said But I remember how it felt When I woke to some semblance of closure And I handed your severance over I ride the bus Then I get off I run for miles And then I walk I spend my money at the store I climb the stairs to my apartment door I love you But I don't trust you Anymore I started keeping a journal If I can't tell you my stories I'll just store them away for Something that treats them like words from a hymnal That'll never shoot spears like the side of a whale I grow and I go out With my friends and we're laughing And I try really hard To forget how it happened I still hold onto things I never mention But I smile so wide you might never have guessed That I'm feeling For now I'm sure I love you But I don't trust you Anymore And I know that we could make it Like the way that things were When I could look you in the eye And not brace myself first And I'm spending my after Trying to get to before But right now (Right now) But right now I love you But I don't trust you Anymore