Not Okay

I wake up At a quarter to one Don't feel like getting dressed I get back It's a standard attack I want to put a bullet in my head Is it always going to be like this? Maybe, no, yes, maybe not Help me please for the love of fucking god My life is coming undone No one told me How easy it is To fall undone No one told me How hard it is To be on the run I am not okay I'll just slip away Life flows on anyway I am not okay What can I say? Your world made this way I am lost And I split like a heart Derealisation Am I wrong? Wait, who's to tell me I'm wrong? My compulsions are strong No one told me How weird it is to be anyone No one told me How to separate the impulsive thoughts I am not okay I'll just slip away Life flows on anyway I am not okay What can I say? Your world made this way