Invitation To My Hell

F*ck i think i need some help I'm losing all my friends Yeah they think i'm someone else I'm tryna speak my mind Distracted by the fucking bells It's heaven reaching out But not for me I think i'm stuck and bound for hell Lucid dreaming everynight While i'm tryna just find myself Losing check after check Buying things i thought would really help They tell me therapy my go to But last time i caved and fell I'm not ready to hand you An invitation to my hell They don't know my life It's not as perfect as it seams Underneath this mask My world is cracking at the fucking seams But they don't see it Coz their eyes are clouded By their social dreams Posting pictures on the gram Portray a life that they ain't seen Yeah the medication helps me But sometimes I oversleep All the dreaming that I'm doing It helps me feel more like me I'm tryna break that habit Hope I find some happiness in me Coz if I don't you'll get a note signed Sincerely me I tip toe on the glass I know it's hurting But I'd rather hurt myself Than be laying here as a burden Thinking everyday Whats the point of life if death is certain Coz all my friends are dead Yet I'm alive so clearly I'm the burden F*ck i think i need some help I'm losing all my friends Yeah they think i'm someone else I'm tryna speak my mind Distracted by the fucking bells It's heaven reaching out But not for me I think i'm stuck and bound for hell Lucid dreaming everynight While i'm tryna just find myself Losing check after check Buying things i thought would really help They tell me therapy my go to But last time i caved and fell I'm not ready to hand you An invitation to my hell They don't know my life Its not as perfect as it seams Underneath this mask My world is cracking at the fucking seams But they don't see it Coz their eyes are clouded By their social dreams Posting pictures on the gram Portray a life that they ain't seen Yeah the medication helps me But sometimes I oversleep All the dreaming that I'm doing It helps me feel more like me I'm tryna break that habit Hope I find some happiness in me Coz if I don't you'll get a note signed Sincerely me