Tonites the Kinda Nite Where I Miss U

Tonight's the kind of night where I miss you the most I try to hide it beat it in my head that it's not supposed to be that way But I can't help it If I could I would But it just doesn't work like that Like sometimes it just slips into my head What I would most likely be doing right now In another timeline A timeline that worked out And I see red lights and tiny familiar faces running into my arms You're only 8 minutes away And that's one phone call to slam on the breaks just one more time Sometimes when I feel a lack of control I can sense that destruction But it would be so worth it to feel that heinous feeling again My emotions melting away like a candle left in the oven After a night on 50 mg of ambien I feel ashamed when I think of you Every time your image gets scratched into the soft side of my fleshy eyelids What I would do to just think of someone else without any hesitation It would help if anyone else wanted anything to do with me I'm stuck in a rut that I cannot get out of I'm just a record that's been vomited on until the acid melts the grooves And when you play it the needle gets more and more dissolved Until eventually the entire cartridge is no longer functional Did you do this to me or did I do it to myself or is this just another test After I failed the last one Or does the test never stop What was that that just passed by me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me, texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me I'm trying to fall asleep, please stop texting me Texting me texting me texting me texting me