how to be a human being

I know how to take a hint Just aint learned not to take offense It's harder making friends When you too hard to let 'em in And when you do it's like you losing yourself It's like what do i have to prove to myself? That i'm worthy enough? that i'm worthy of love? Does a little bit of hurt convert a burden from trust? Even sharpening steel Someday it still gotta rust And change is prolly happening before it feel like it does It's something delicate about airing out frustrations Or even slight impatience I mean it's like complacence, you find your solace in it You find yourself outside yourself despite the solipsism Some say our thoughts are prison I think it's less than that but more complex I haven't figured yet, that's prolly why i haven't stressed I used to practice self harm via selfishness I used to cut myself off from my relevance I even practiced celibacy It used to be a choice, now it's a regret What type of man don't find no power out of sex? This not a flex but i'm too proud to be depressed There's disempowerment in that The thing about crashing out is only cowards make it back I traded dollars for a strap Now am i active or i'm acting? Guess i'm only finna see if it's needing my reaction Another rap bout how my passions went Same place where my actions did Way before my words cuz i got hurt from lack of backing them Feel like my personhood detached from my actions Is you holding me accountable or holding me captive? Crackers want my personhood detached from my blackness They gon provoke me every time just to get a reaction