Jake's Regrets

I just don't know Have you ever wanted to throw up at being uneasy with something that's just so uncontrollable in your life? If you have, this song is for you Woke up another day, some head pains and a stomachache Going through this struggling, I need some toughening It's just life, but it's so unsettling, and this is only the second day A heartbreak and a suicide I'll take I just wanna end my life feels like the world is better off if I die But what about my family? Could this end another way? I'm waiting for another time to be happy, but I'm still waiting for that day I think I'm losing my damn mind I ain't saying this just cause it rhymes I'm just venting my emotions out, spit it on my PAIN. album, 'cause it feels like the right time It started with this bitch who came into my life Every argument, had to tell her she was right Found out that was the biggest mistake I ever would make to break my life And that was only the start, Had to do it for a year, and That was the last time I felt my spirit linger in here Because I felt my pride going down the drain, and, I can't take this anymore Because I felt my pride going down the drain, and, I can't take this anymore Finally made it out of counseling Life's a horror story, it's harrowing Feels like I'm on the road of shame, and now I feel things narrowing And I finally made some progress Thank God for my friends, bless, their hearts They got me out of this trouble And I'd like to take this time to, to thank my counselor Who walked me through it all, she had talked me through it Gave me strength when life was shit, but worth the length and I don't know if I can express my appreciation Any other way, and, for the family or other people I've been difficult to Well, I'm sorry I was in a bad place, never meant to be distant Because I love you all, and I don't want to ever go there again And I hope this is the last time That I gotta deal with love shit again Because it was hard once And I don't want to ever buckle taking pressure twice And for anyone else I've missed If I've gone at you or whatever I'm truly sorry My head, had just been in the wrong place This is just something I had to get off my chest From two years ago Because I felt my pride going down the drain, but I'm strong, I know I Can get through this mental pain I hope this saved at least one person Through whatever trouble you're going through