Old Me

I'm dancing with my demons but this is a different song Yea I'm sick and tired of being tired why it take so long I wake up everyday but shit is still the same It feels like I not even moving yea is this a game It's like I keep going backwards and I can't even make up Only time I'm at peace if I sit down and get up Sometimes I stare in space wanting to give up But this ain't the old me gotta persevere and stay real tough I got stay real tough Or nobody will I'm here by myself I don't got a ville I don't got a gang It's just me and a few homies playing this damn game Ever since that day I haven't felt the same Where I realized I'm not that tough that I'm just a normal nigga Wit no skill With no fame Those other niggas called me lame One day I had enough But I'm still waiting for that day Because I'm not feeling that tough Cuz I feel setback Sometimes I just stay in bed cuz of these setbacks I wish I was in the air with a jet pack In a fight with life but I can't hit back I'm dancing with my demons but this is a different song Yea I'm sick and tired of being tired why it take so long I wake up everyday but shit is still the same It feels like I not even moving yea is this a game It's like I keep going backwards and I can't even make up Only time I'm at peace if I sit down and get up Sometimes I stare in space wanting to give up But this ain't the old me gotta persevere and stay real tough Throwback to old me when I used to hoop and face off But then one day I realized I ain't have skill so took off Went to focusing on school cuz u know thought I had a talent But then I got to college and I ain't have that real knowledge Now I'm fighting with my music but this is kinda sad too It's like I'm making all these songs for like a crowd of one or 2 All this pain and all this sorrow stuck to me like it's glue But I guess I'm going through so I can grow up like mewtwo But I guess I'm a special few I'm one of those niggas who can put pen to paper And record a song straight through like I'm a Laser Bout to shock all these niggas like I am a taser And I won't be scared to cut niggas if like a razor Ok y'all get it I don't mind being by myself It's been like that from that start just my, me and myself And I'm stacking up my characters right on that shelf In this game called life you might be alone And sometimes it's hard to do this shit alone I got all these thoughts filling up my dome So I just write it's down because the notes are like home I'm not a rapper yet I just make some tunes Sometimes it's safe space to let me fume I told you that I'll make it just give me a few I told you that I'll make it I'll be there soon I'm dancing with my demons but this isn't a loss I gotta make there ima be a boss I gotta get through life this ain't a sweet dream Ima fight to end this ain't the old me