Deep Fire

Too much of this fire, I've gotta keep it tucked It needs some control or else we could be fucked I'm holding this fire, all that so I can be a Image of a man that wasn't my idea Too much of this fire, I've gotta keep it tucked It needs some control or else we could be fucked Let me talk real quick So I was born with an X and a Y This identity has always suited me, so I'm questioning why There's all these fucking boxes I'm boxing with I really want to opt out 'til my options shift Niggas always watch you close like big brother And say to leave the matrix just to be stuck in another Why's the world you want me living in so void of color? And where the feelings should be dealt with undercover? I wanna be a fighter and lover, not one or the other Talk about the loud silence where I'm supposed to suffer Got this rite of passage but I feel so left-field Our fathers never went in the direction to get healed All they know is stoicism, holding in the pain Non-emotional, we never go what's going through their brains Gotta be the strongest for their families, can't bring them shame But if I bottle up like Molotovs I'm bursting into flames What do I do? Too much of this fire, I've gotta keep it tucked It needs some control or else we could be fucked I'm holding this fire, all that so I can be a Image of a man that wasn't my idea Too much of this fire, I've gotta keep it tucked It needs some control or else we could be fucked I'm holding this fire, all that so I can be a Image of a man that wasn't my idea I know it ain't nature, it's gotta be nurture Cause if it were my nature wouldn't think about it further The woman ain't responsible for the fire, still we burn her I'm still part of the problem, I ain't only an observer But the minute I turn off the aggression niggas are stressing Thinking it's some kind of agenda and I'm regressing Saying "All of that behavior's effeminate expression" The way I see it though, I'm moving steady with progression I feel like I need to get that human element back It's setting my development back Half the shit that I'm expected to become is so irrelevant But I don't see us coming to a settlement (Nope) I'm gonna walk away slowly I'm gonna walk away slowly Imma dive deep and get to know me Your little idea had me feeling lonely and isolated Too much of this fire, I've gotta keep it tucked It needs some control or else we could be fucked I'm holding this fire, all that so I can be a Image of a man that wasn't my idea Too much of this fire, I've gotta keep it tucked It needs some control or else we could be fucked I'm holding this fire, all that so I can be a Image of a man that wasn't my idea I want people I'm allowed to vent to Truth is deep inside I'm feeling bent, ooh I can't be a pillar all the time for you I want people I'm allowed to vent to Truth is deep inside I'm feeling bent, ooh I can't be a pillar all the time for you