NeverDreamingLivingLife

(Jmar, I miss you) (Jesse) I get these butterflies All of these sleepless night where I cannot not fantasize a Bout you right by my side I Fucked up so many times I Cannot do nothing right Look in the mirror I Don't recognize those eyes I been here before And all this shit lookin' familiar but I'm hittin' a brand new low I hate what I see in the mirror but he's staring right into my soul He's pickin' apart my weaknesses kickin' me down to the floor Trust me I know I'm always engaging in actions I know they I know they ain't ever been good for my self And sometimes I think about my generation and all of the shit that we do to our health We always try to just keep it inside but really want to just call out for help The two things that I ever wanted to do was do good by my mama and good by myself I got this pain in my heart it's hard to ignore it 200 the dash say f*ck it we floor it You know I ain't really worried 'bout life Wake up in the ER like six in the morning They saying I got in a car crash And they sayin' that I'm livin' too fast I know this ain't gon' be my last, I'll probably revisit once a couple months pass I'm trying to be fine I've had sleepless days and nights Always putting up a fight Neverdreaminglivinglife Never thinking roll the dice Always gotta pay the price I been holding on for life No fear just out of spite I want to be happy, so I need a distraction Reality's fucked up, I don't want to be past tense But how can I manage, when I see through the lies still Cut holes in my sleeves so, I can feel I'm alive still I know that I bleed so, I see that I'm fine still Yeah I been wasted I'm shameless, runnin' from the truth I'm growin' up too fast, I really been losin' my youth Keep me outta the loop And we done burned bridge after bridge and I can't afford to see another flame grow So I'm lookin' up to the moon and the stars, and I know who Ima chase for Fucked up so many times I can't do nothing right Look in the mirror I Don't recognize those eyes I'm trying to be fine I've had sleepless days and nights Always putting up a fight Neverdreaminglivinglife Never thinking roll the dice Always gotta pay the price I been holding on for life No fear just out of spite (Out of spite) (Jmar, lets fucking go)