Pursuit of Distraction

(I'm not doing well, I'm really really not doing well) (I like that) (I've never been clean, and I don't plan on getting clean) (Jesse) (I'm a piece of shit) Got so much pressure on me giving me a heart attack I made it so damn far for nothing ain't no turning back The lights go out I hit the stage my vision turns to black I thought that this would make me happy what the f*ck is that, In my head Thinkin' bout the options Theoretical nonsense It's tellin' me to end it all Got my back against the wall The depression never ends like I'm cemented to my bed Going over and over everything that you ever said to me I honestly wish you were dead to me But you're not, in my head I've been thinkin' bout you I know you haven't thought of me We could take a flight to Paris then catch one down to Belize But you don't want that, You don't want the nice guy you want the one that talks back Got me screamin' f*ck that yeah Over and over and over and over and over again I'm constantly taming the demons that fightin' inside of my head I'm hoping that one day there's gonna be an escape at the end Of the road of the pursuit of distraction I don't want to do this any more You're gonna find me one day strung out on the floor It doesn't matter if you're rich or piss poor, You're on the road to the pursuit of distraction Sorry this was lovely but I'll be long gone by the mornin' And there was static with us but it was far too distorted You need me to be supportive But I can't let no one into this lil' world that I'm forming Tell me again, But don't say it too fast the weed I need has got me feelin' kinda bent And I read between the lines a little too much I'm gettin in my head sometimes, I wonder where my money spent sometimes, I think I'm richer than I am (I am) But I know I'm better than I think, I always hear it from her friends Momma say that I'm a prodigy How come I can't do apologies I jus tell it how it ought to be I hope the finish is far for me This shit the start of my odyssey Hope this the part of my life where I finally feel like I belong Hopefully I don't see happiness as a distraction ain't felt it in so very long I lose my sanity, searching for revenge In this fantasy, We know it ain't pretend And they've been callin' me a psycho Maybe they're right how long am I post to be high for Over and over and over and over and over again I'm constantly taming the demons that fightin' inside of my head I'm hoping that one day there's gonna be an escape at the end Of the road of the pursuit of distraction I don't want to do this any more You're gonna find me one day strung out on the floor It doesn't matter if you're rich or piss poor, You're on the road to the pursuit of distraction (Ya) (Jmar, let's fucking go)