All In Your Head

Eyes heavy, burkin bags up under them Work for bag, I'm wondering Is this work the stress that I'm bundling? Come again? I do not be slumbering Brain is jumping, bumping and Spinning, humming Loud like dryer tumbling Mask on tighter than doctor doom My true self yelling like "Gimme room" Not the physical, but mental the mask consumes Until I'm cool the way you want me to like eating hot food, I'm so uncomfortable Chasing checks is cool until you break your neck Both the literal, and when something new piques interest When you lay down you enter rest When I lay down my mind searching like the internet Brain buzz like flies when they enter net I want to give my fam the best But this pain that's in my chest Constantly reminds me that at any time, my name is next I'm way too damn young to be carrying all this stress All these people counting on me like package from UPS I don't have the heart to say it But you know just what I mean Sometimes I wish that I could just leave and never be seen Existential crisis and a god complex Introverted narcissist Self esteem is low, plus minimal self respect (Its all in your head You're better than you think) If that's the case then why am I still standing at this sink? (You know it's all in your head) Everybody tells me that I wish someone would listen to without talking back I know its unrealistic I'm somewhat pessimistic Afraid of being judged, but you'll just say that I'm egocentric Critical hippos I know you feel the same way That's why your hurling insults at me from across the way The whole world is sick and the whole world's the culprit Hurt people hurting more people, no way to solve it Therapists need therapists Doctors need Doctors Teachers teach teachers Leaders lead leaders The never ending cycle that we learned in science class Broken by the people throwing stones at the glass