Black Winter Day

Torn apart now I cannot have a strong relation Confusion, of your related Torn apart now These are the choices we made Do I follow or walk away (verse 1) Yeah, most of my adult life I've been torn into two If you love me, then I love you and this song is for you It's tight hard when you know what you said And your shorty seein' you as an emotional wreck The closer I get, it's like the farther I feel And my heart has turned into this heavy armor and steel It's hard to be real, hard to listen to the dumb shit And I take a lot of pills 'cause it numbs shit I wish I had another path to follow Wish that I could be a man and learn to pass the bottle A graphic novel, my future a box or an urn Havin' dreams about death, but I'm not that concerned And I'm diseased, through the seasons they turn Watchin' leaves from the trees turn diseased and they burn I'm eager to learn, but I'm holdin' my breath And everyday alive is just another closer to death