PAST TRAUMA (feat. Juice & AUZEL)

She been holding it down for 22 years That's 22 years of tears Her father not even here He took his life away No reason or note to share She's searching but nothings there She found him laying right there Blood is leaking from the chair She heard a pop in her ears She was sleeping upstairs Thought it was a dream But it came true No wonder she's so scared To sleep or fucking think That everything is fucking true Anxiety's steady creeping into the room Lately She been losing herself While constantly thinking what helps Constant searches through the internet Looking for what's in her head Not to realize it's her mental health Now I'm picking a book off the shelf Hopefully to understand The trauma that you really been dealt The type of shit that's makes your knees hit Then look up to god and wonder what's next Shit I wonder what's next Yeah Am I up next Is it my turn I don't wanna die sinning I know I'll burn Am I up next Is it my turn I don't wanna die sinning I know I'll burn For eternity Look around me Take a look They drowning They drowning And I can't breathe For real How could she be ready for comfort After something so tragic I mean it's hard to form it out And just relate to what happened But shit She found some courage Ima find it too With this Gotta address it how you make it through So listen One day her whole life changed Woke up and heard sum strange Went down the steps one and after next And what she found was pain Her father gone and she was a witness at a younger age Only sixteen seen too much at a crucial stage And days like that don't just fade away Life after that don't just stay the same She had to keep pushing Keep hope sometimes she kept it in Keep that up for long enough One day it's gon catch up again That go past trauma Corselet to post trauma Holding on still Holding on to Memories with her only father