In the storm

Walking through the storm, I ain't get to see a sunny day No poncho, I've been walking in the rain All this pain inside of me, thought itd never go away Never thought I'd see the day the casket closed on jay face For so long, I've been trying to figure out how to make it go away Then I met a girl, make it feel like I'm just okay All this pain in my heart, thought it'd never go away For so long, I've been trying to find a way to ease the pain With all the struggle and no help, I've been trying to make a way Lately, I've been feeling like scorey if I die young Or like Rod Darius, I've been feeling all alone When I sit and close my eyes, I see a dead bodies came from the trenches It's like I see a constant homie My homie since a sandbox, switched up Don't know how to love, don't know how to trust In the streets where you fall in love with the streets But the streets don't love, so you lose all love Wake up at home and go to sleep in a jail cell So used to funerals and court dates, I fell in love with pills Since 2018, we was kicking doors and doing drills Now I'm dreaming about being in the hills I got that call about Jay, I ain't know how to feel Heart broken and it shatters into different pieces Like mitro vavle regurgitation, my heart's steady leaking Cause I remember bando in my arms bleeding I got so much anger from my daddy leaving Oh, how much I'll do just to hear I'm proud of you Or a birthday card saying that I love you Therapy and medication turn to pills and lean Asking momma when our next meal finna be So much pain, feel like I can't breathe Asking myself, if it's my fault my pops had to leave Jody said there's so much pain in these streets Here to take a sip of this lean Ever since then I've been a lean fiend Cause it's only thing that seem to help All this pain in my heart, thought it's never go away For so long, I've been trying to find a way to ease the pain With no help and all the struggle, I've been trying to make a way Lately, I've been feeling like a scorey if I die young Or like Rod Darius, I've been feeling all alone When I sit and close my eyes, I see a dead bodies Came from the trenches like I see a constant homie