Who I Am

Just a reminder to myself that Ain’t perfect Just a reminder to myself that I Am worth it Just a reminder to myself that I Don’t need em’ Just a reminder to myself that I Can beat em’ Yeah Welcome to my thoughts Apologize it’s very cloudy Dealing with the feeling Like I feel like I’m nobody Don’t know where I’m headed I got no sense of direction Riding very steadily Did I forget to mention I’ve been riding on my own For a while now Got many thoughts in my head It’s getting wild now Hate to feel this way Wanna leave but I don’t know-how Dealing on a daily And it always follows me around Yeah Can’t accept who I am And Somehow I find that crazy Asking God for guidance Then Continue being lazy Pick up the phone Where are you going Don't leave me alone Let me finish the story I- Why don’t I know who I am I do not Why don’t I know who I am I do not Why don’t I know who I am I do not Why don’t I know who I am I do not Yeah My perspective is different When I’m sad it hits different Always stay reminiscing I need help I’m not kidding You think it’s easy Think it’s easy being myself I’m kinda lost Please help Please check my mental health In a place that’s deserted Not so sure that the heard me Cause they keep commenting And almost all of it hurts me I have feelings too Well at least I think I do Not knowing what to do Always falling through Yeah And lately I feel like the only one trying I been devoured by my fears And lied to by my silence If I’m feeling lost Then have I found regret Yeah Show me Where I’m wrong Show me where I flipped Maybe then and there is where I’ll start understanding Meanwhile I’m out the zone not Quite comprehending I’m sorry I didn’t mean to bother you I only need a minute Never mind I’ll keep it quiet Keep it silent I won’t bother Why don’t I know who I am I do not Why don’t I know who I am I do not Why don’t I know who I am I do not Why don’t I know who I am I do not Why don’t I know who I am I do not Why don’t I know who I am I do not Why don’t I know who I am I do not Why don’t I know who I am I do not Maybe things are meant to be this way and that's ok Been doing it so long can’t expect you to relate I have been looking for myself for the longest and I still wait Til’ the day I can wake and say that I’m doing great Until then I’ll keep writing Always staying strong Keep on fighting Even when things go wrong Keep my eyes up above Looking for his mercy Looking for solutions That I can not find in humans