Wishful Thinking

Lately I've been thinkin bout my ex Thinkin bout the single life I'm always fuckin' stressed Cheated on me and ya hit the next Prolly woulda came at my neck You know them spanish chicks Always down to f*ck No luck quick nut Pussy was the best i ever fuckin' touched Quick bust Had me feelin rusty everytime we fucked I said this never happen Couldn't last to make her cum I've been feelin crazy lately yea i'm feelin numb Life is gettin tirin Feelin like chewed gum Spit me out like im used Kick me out like a bum Hit me like a fuckin juul Knocked down like the scum Ive been tryin to get bread Pickin all these crumbs I was lookin for commitment She was lookin for some fun I was tryna work it out But She said i aint the one Since then i quit relationships Tryna coppa gun This life isnt best for me I need a plan to run Been contemplatin Suicide 24 i'm young I'll play lifes game til either 50 51 Maybe 60 61 Ive had good times And i know that im loved But what good is life If your constantly alone Ive been goin hard But i still missed my zone I never hit my friends Why the f*ck im always home I bought a used car Got a new fuckin phone I aint hit nobody up I Been gone for too long Why'd i stay away from love Bitches always did me wrong 1A was pretty bad But the dicky wasnt strong Her pussy too tight Didn't say my dicky small She said she need a man I guess i wasnt one at all My self esteem Has reached My all time low F*ck my posed to grow Feelin like i cant do shows My motivation reach a low Anxiety is kickin Feelin demon creepin Watch my body die Heart stops beatin Wouldnt talk it Less i see it Scared to sleep When i'm dreamin When i'm dreamin Feel the presence Feel it breathin On my shoulder Down my neck Hold me down He be screamin Needa get you life together In the end ima reap it I wake up with My door wide open I know i left it closed I've been sensin omens I got bad luck And I travel with some curses Ever since baby moms Feelin numb As it worsens My chest is gettin tighter It aint never gonna open Up to any bitch In the end it isnt worth it I cant feel my energy I'm tryna gain a purpose I feel you here I feel you watching me I know your there Your presence is taunting me I bet you don't care What more you want from me I feel them stares Tell me whats wrong with me