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I swear she took me to a place, that felt so unfamiliar I grabbed her hand thinking she would paint my lines to silver Maybe reveal the gate to heaven, then ask me to enter Thinking did god invent her, or the devil send her The difference is so hard to see when she looks so pretty These mind games that she plays, they been messing with me Every night she’s in my head, 'round 11:50 Every night I drown myself, indulge in coke and Henny She knows she got a hold I’ve been trying to escape And this jail cell so close Like a mental block away She wears the key around her neck And another for the safe Then when she goes to bed Is the only time I feel sane Man I struggle to recollect Her and I always reconnect Every route shes Redirect Led me to my demons den I'm dreaming of my freedom land She tells me I should keep it in Sex inside the Babylon That’s when she calls her heathens in I've been drowning all my sorrows in the clouds I could feel her sneaking all around In a place she shouldn’t be allowed I shiver at the sound, dripping from her mouth I've been drowning all my sorrows in the clouds I could feel her sneaking all around In a place she shouldn’t be allowed I shiver at the sound, dripping from her mouth Yo How many times have I questioned what I’m worth The broken pieces I have hope to make em work But when she’s near, I just always assume the worse She a blessing or a curse, I get that no ones perfect She plays these games, where I never get a turn She tells me things without using any words She makes me feel like, I don’t belong to church I just hate to confess my thirst, imma take it to my hearse First her gates open I hesitate to go in There ain’t no getting out Once I’m roped in I'm deep inside this dream I just can’t be awoken Every time I try to speak It's like my tongue was kept frozen The battlefields I was thrown in But she says it only hurts for the moment When my whole life has been filled with bad omens I hate to deal with the losses Keeping high just to deal with the voices You gotta deal with your choices Getting lost in emotions I've been drowning all my sorrows in the clouds I could feel her sneaking all around In a place she shouldn’t be allowed I shiver at the sound, dripping from her mouth I've been drowning all my sorrows in the clouds I could feel her sneaking all around In a place she shouldn’t be allowed I shiver at the sound, dripping from her mouth She got a lasso 'round my mind I’m her puppet on strings Her little doll when shes bored All the things I done seen The toy house I was raised from Where she’d run little scenes They say trapped Like they know what it means She started running my dreams Heaven and hell, I've been caught in between Not many options when you're auctioned off To higher supremes Was never one to switch teams It’d go against all my means I’m on my hands and my knees Praying my brain was set free I've been drowning all my sorrows in the clouds I could feel her sneaking all around In a place she shouldn’t be allowed I shiver at the sound, dripping from her mouth I've been drowning all my sorrows in the clouds I could feel her sneaking all around In a place she shouldn’t be allowed I shiver at the sound, dripping from her mouth