A Part Of Me

I know how you're feeling you tryna front I know what you're doing I knew what it was You know that I'm heated what I'm feeling of The way that you're moving ain't tired of us I know I be trippen off all of it What am I to you I know that my heart ain't enough Don't want you thinkin I don't love you enough But I push away cuz I love you too much I got these issues I'm scared of aware of I know what I'm really becoming I'm living inside of it love me for me everytime that I try to run from it The images different when you're caught up it attention of lust but you love it We know what's up with it that's why you're dismissive we both really know the truth of it She told me I see it I see you what you're going through with everything that you say You think you've been heartless I know how you act where you started I know where you came I sense all the anger inside of you clouding emotions I feel all your pain Cuz with people like us we ain't got no trust how to act we've been tryna maintain You know I'm confused with our life and addicted I know that you're trying you tried when I didn't I'm falling apart but I'm way too alive I got all of my ego and love that I live with Just know that I do it for you when I'm losing myself through it all even tho Imma miss it You hate what I'm showing when I'm actin different Apart of me's losing the trust I get distant So who am I The judge of your life I am crucified Above all the morals I said of life You think that I got it but you ain't mine So why am I tripping with my decisions of the ones that I have you weren't ever with it All the talk of a life that I never wanted and I knew what it was I know what it isn't Looking at me I don't know if it hurts The voices I speak in the talent of hers The past of my life coming back from the dark I'm numb to the voices my skeletons pure I speak about moments to live in the art All I know is my pain I've been leaving a mark And I know it ain't healthy but who's gonna help me I'm pushing away know it tears me apart And losing my grandma I never recovered its killing me slowly I'm good through the stress was lost in the system with these foster families using us for all the money i guess A couple of nightmares I have from it all I was fighting for me I was on the defense Scared for my life had it under my bed It's a couple of things that I keep to my chest It's probably why I have been scared of the dark I've been forcing myself in the madness of ours I torture my mind when I turn off the lights and I'm living inside of my traumas remarks My mom was an addict and pregnant with me she was stuck up on meth know I fought from the start I say that I want it the pressure the smoke the spilling of souls when I just want a heart Exposing myself cuz I know that it's knowledge That I gotta give to the people that's honest And scared of themselves know I'm scared of my health my mentality's breaking I've been too exhausted I'll take to the chin gotta move from within cuz it's bigger then me do it for us I got it The monsters inside of my bones you created the pain of it at all from my birth I was locked in