All For It

Put it all on me all of my guilt burdens my sins Momma told me what I am losing myself lost from within Speaking on me you don't want pressure I don't give a f*ck about this I breath life when I talk you don't want smoke what I bleed lives You had to go to it every time I see the fear when I sense in your mind Out of it dawg when I see in your eyes A talentless fraud a persona of mine You don't know that I'm lost I put all of my blood on the cross I am the pain that's evolved I was painted by god Out of frame I had to make my way Speaking on my character and on my name What the f*ck try to say it to my face I'm seeing you through my nights trauma that I'm having knowing that I can't escape My first love that I lost mom put us all through it that's why I'm afraid I'm afraid of love and committed to it every time that I try know I'm losing faith And I blame myself cuz I won't fix it I am too stubborn I don't even aim All the pressure that I'm overthinking people hating on me shit I'll burn in flames Before I let another one a talentless bop balance me off of my fate I see my ghosts coming for me I don't even care trippen off my versions Know I suffer with it in silence even tho I deal with the urges And you wonder why I've been scattered losing myself I'm a different person I've been losing sleep I try to fight the waves understand the flames that I burn in The irony of my testament And all you get from my will is all of my words of pain shit that's heaven sent Words of seon they try to reprimand They don't even know me only ones close to me really know that I'm affectionate You can judge off everything everything but my penmanship I struggle with it I sacrificed My sanity for the ones that cried I saw the struggle that was all inside Stuck up in the system when they should've tried Broken families with money motivation for the kids stuck desperation I Saw it all through it trauma I don't call up role models never had in my life So I did it without any say it with my chest I know you can feel all my scars If you open me and open up my wounds feel the blood from it bleeding from the stars The night sky outsiders of my timeline time flies when we reach for ours I speak from it not experience but delivering from a broken heart