My Story

Tell me how you really feel Its hard.. to put into words.. feelings you know Well tell me the best you can I mean, I don't even really know what I'm going through myself But you can describe to me what you feel your going through right I really don't like talking about things I don't understand or care about You don't care about how you feel I don't care about a lot of things Why Do you really care to know cause ill tell you I mean... I wouldn't ask myself a question I don't care to know the answer to Well I don't want Adoration I don't want Attention I don't want Admiration I don't want Celebration I just want Peace and time Yeah I just want Peace of mind I just want Time to find Where am I How am I What am I Why am I Even fighting To live when I'm just surviving Life like to strike like lightning Don't want no love its blinding Just wanna laugh and vibe yet I feel like getting violent When you hear me get quiet I'm screaming in my silence I sleep yet I'm still tired Cant dream cause life's a nightmare I wanna leave this mindset But i cant cause I'm tied up to kindness Not for myself but my friends I wonder when this shit ends Prolly when I'm not living So i just wanna fucking make it go so I can stop stressing But i guess that all of us aint getting what's a happy ending Feel like I'm dumb for trying harder when this struggles endless I don't even know what the f- I'm feeling regardless So you really don't know what you feeling I mean.. when people ask me i say idk Well, if you don't know.. lets get to know Ayt Every night I cry But no tears in sight I got one person to call That's my boy all night DTB for life There's no such thing as a spark They call me toxic But I'm heartless like tony stark I don't need no love I don't need no dove I don't need no one feeling pity for me enough I got all this shit I'm dealing with, I cant even fucking look Cause one eye on my mentality One eye on my look Two eyes on the mirror Thinking when is this guy gonna jump Thinking why do people be hating Its not like I do nothing good I put my trust in you for good Told you everything I loved Now we aint even speaking Like strangers to lovers but reverse Music the only thing going that's keeping me from the dark The only thing I love, took half of my heart Being tired for keeping a smile Tired for saying I'm fine Cause people say they fine, but they really out of time I don't give a f*ck, the shit that people do But my minds going dark cause the shit I've been through I just focus on myself, focus on not caring Listen i tried to explain it, but that's the best that I can do Thank you... maybe we can understand each other better now