Realisation

ColumboBeats X JZ What happened to me? What happened to trust? What happened to love? What happened to us? A relationship now it's fading to dust We were flying so high now its turning to rust I remember the days When love was so real You could be totally open with the way that you feel Nothing was hidden Nothing to conceal But nowadays Tables turn like a wheel Say I'm okay Got friends who ain't real Got friends who are snakes They don't care how I feel Let me down at every turn I play with fire And then I get burnt Making mistakes Yeah I'll never learn Use me for money The P's that I earn Then when I fall down They never return Won't trust again I'm sick of being hurt Sick of crying Being left in the dirt Had so many plans going on tour But I'm dying inside I've got no drive anymore I was back on my feet then I fell to the floor I thought I was free now they're closing the door It was all a dream yeah I'm fucked to the core Think I'm finally done Can't take anymore Don't wanna hurt Don't wanna cry Don't wanna feel the way I do inside Waves taking over And I'm stuck in the tide So it's finally time For my final goodbyes So to my girl and my family This is my last letter for eternity Because I'll never stop hurting And I'll never fuckin feel better Because I'll never stop hurting And I'll never fucking feel better My mental health makes me feel insane Can't cope with the times when I'm hurting in Pain So many thoughts that are fucked in my brain Had therapy sessions but I still feel the same I rap to relieve Don't rap to get fame Don't give a f*ck who remembers my name I was sat in my room saying mum I can't take it Don't give a f*ck about money Mum I just wanna make it Too many people took my heart just to break it I thought love was real but too many fake it Loves fucked up For me love is forsaken Can't take another heartbreak I'm all fucked up And I can't take another heartache Got so many questions That I just can't ask Like how can a smile disappear So fucking fast A lot of them lessons got learnt A bunch of them bridges got burned No one said that it will be easy Just gotta keep going and get turnt You don't need no motivation You just gotta get up and do it Smokin on the devils lettuce thinking I'm a failure Mumzy said I was getting myself into danger But Nah man I didn't believe her Man Just kept toking on the reefa Till I just finally clocked Time doesn't stop for no one So you gotta stay on the dot I don't care if your feeling sad mad or angry Just best believe, the people on top Don't give a f*ck about you they don't stop Need to keep grinding so your not a flop It's always easier said than done But you cannot doubt yourself Stick to yourself don't trust no one Without no grind there's no reward Don't let no people tell you that you can't be a king Don't let no people tell you that you can't be a lord