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I sit up in this cockpit alone I'm trying to rocket I drift away from, every day, these labors on my docket May never get up from this chair, with every breath I smoke and swear That I will make it out despair, then slump back down like I don't care But climbing all these mental stairs has got me looking worse for wear My mental fabric starts to tear, I find my body sits and stares Aware but not a part of there, unable to control unfair The way I gather guts and dare to move and end up anywhere But circumstances in the air rain down on me and curses blare About time on auto repair, apartment's got some rats to spare This slump has got me feeling snared, it makes me want to stay impaired The way I look at life and glare at God, boy I can't wait to share Prayer may not just make it there, I'd have to ditch my savoir faire and realize in time the universe is more like Ursa, bare I sit up in this cockpit alone, I'm trying to rocket, I drift away from every day, these labors on my docket This hurry up and wait shit has got me going ape shit No reasons left to stay with this life where I just take shit Struggle not to break shit, I'll venture away from hatred Control my rage with Mary Jane and show you that you ain't shit Saint shit, I gave it all a pass like it was ancient So feint like you were hurt, and let em eat it up like paint chips My other troubles cover up attempts to make arrangements Can't work on time without deadlines, it's like I need arraignment Creative my proclivity demands I try to train it But try to force this force, elusive sort keeps like abstainment Containing it is like I'm catching smoke with hands Constrainment Is what I feel when I see others wrecking entertainment I wanna do the same but in my brain is just a maze meant To keep me in my circles as I fight my own derangement So now I drift through time alone, these talents all at once I hone I sift through all archives and tomes, in this gallery I call my home I sit up in this cockpit alone, I'm trying to rocket, I drift away from everyday, these labors on my docket