TNT (Trials 'n' Tribulations)

Back when I was four Boys had me on the floor Molestin' me Always tryin' somethin' sexually I didn't know what they were doin' But I knew, my innocence was ruined Turned five and just learned how to ride a bike (ride a bike) But that neighborhood bully was always outside (outside) And she loved making life a livin' hell (a livin' hell) She died at thirty, I hope she's resting well (rest in peace) At age seven I learned my first lesson (first lesson) I never wanna be like my parents with that aggression (that aggression) All the fighting, the screaming, the blood Had me feeling like I'll never fall in love (never fall in love) My solution was food when I was eight (when I was eight) Them fat kid days Two honey buns every day (every day) Got picked on every way And I never got a break (got a break) The pointing, the laughing, the jokes, all the hate (all the hate) Anger management started back when I was nine (when I was nine) Always sittin on a couch Tell em that I'm fine (Tell em that I'm fine) When I was ten, you couldn't tell me shit then But I turned eleven and really started stressin' 'cause Little boys was chasin' tryna be my blessin' Thinkin' that they grown Asking all them questions like Can I be your man Do you understand You got curvy on me Baby what's the plan Little did I know My ass shoulda ran 'Cause niggas act a fool when they feelin' like the man Now when I turned twelve, I was really in the game Gave my heart away turned around and got played Thirteen, thought I was fine 'til it was time ('til it was time) For my parents to separate and finally unwind (finally unwind) Fourteen, that's when everything got real (got real) I just started high school, kids gettin' killed (gettin' killed) Fifteen, got high for the first time 'Cause I thought it would take away the pain that's inside (pain that's inside) Sixteen, seventeen, everybody pregnant (everybody pregnant) All eyes on me, I ain't even sell it (I ain't even sell it) Bitches wanna fight me, 'cause all they niggas want it (all they niggas wanted it) But I never gave the pussy up I knew that I was worth it (knew that I was worth it) Graduation night, it was gettin' kinda late I wish I could go back and stop myself from getting raped (getting raped) It's true what they say You'll never feel the same (feel the same) I really couldn't deal with the all the lies and the pain Suicidal thoughts is only thing that's on my brain (on my brain) Always gettin cheated on was driving me insane (driving me insane) College days was crazy It kinda fucked me up (fucked me up) Heartbreak, then homeless, dropped out, locked up (locked up) Looking in the mirror and I hated what I saw (hated what I saw) Low self esteem, that's the reason niggas hit it raw When I turned twenty, I joined the military I tried to change my ways But these girls wouldn't let me (girls wouldn't let me) I don't know what to say One lied, One cried I flew to Korea and tried to push that shit aside (push that shit aside) I wasted my time, tryna love these niggas They had them a dime What's wrong with these niggas? (what's wrong with these niggas) 2016, December was the month I can't even believe that I really did jump (really did jump) 2017, my faith is in God He helped me dodge a bullet, a boy with no job (a boy with no job) 2019, gave birth to a girl She already know mama finna give her the world 2020 hit, man that shit was bitch All my demons unfolded, and I damn near quit 2022, didn't know what to do Then he came out the blue I fell in love with my boo It's 2023, and I know who imma be A bad bitch that you finna see on TV If you ever fucked me over may you rest in peace 'Cause when I finally make it You can't sit wit' me