Lonely Winters

Each year, same shit Will it ever switch? Feels like all the walls around are closing in I'm alone with all my thoughts, yet again I ain't lookin' for my family or a friend Each year, same shit One day it'll switch All the walls will turn to doors, then I can pick But it's different, don't take this as ya boy bein' bitter I'm just gettin' fuckin' sick of bein' lonely every winter Does anybody else feel me? I'm speakin' from the real me This ain't Bibby talkin', this is Kyle Beebe I'm a pretty damn good guy, really It seems it's never fucking mattered, not once, clearly (Mute) My generation's so silly We grew up with the internet so bein' social soon became "I'm busy" Just a small town boy, no city I've wanted out for long but why's the need for somethin' more got me feelin' me guilty? Damn... I know it shouldn't, family's funny in that way though cuz I always felt I couldn't So I didn't, I kept it simple The ones that know me know though that I'm built much different than traditional I'm too original, but why would anybody steer me wrong with love that's unconditional? So, I coasted, and did the things that they said But what's the price of being cozy if on the inside you're dead? Shit Each year, same shit Will it ever switch? Feels like all the walls around are closing in I'm alone with all my thoughts, yet again I ain't lookin' for my family or a friend Each year, same shit One day it'll switch All the walls will turn to doors, then I can pick But it's different, don't take this as ya boy bein' bitter I'm just gettin' fuckin' sick of bein' lonely every winter The world has gotten kinda crazy Everybody's shady, it's like we're livin' in a film that's Scorsese Ones that shouldn't reproduce are havin' babies Maybe I'm just jealous that they've got themselves a partner, maybe With all this time alone It's got me thinkin' that I'm the only person out here That can stop myself from sinkin' Sometimes it fades, I know it's linked with the drinkin' I'll write a couple songs I'll cry while I'm singin', what I'm sayin' is Someday, I want kids I find that there's a problem with too many stupid fucks not using condoms I'll be honest, speakin' modest I hate using them too, but there's an issue with 3 kids before you turn 22 That's not my problem and it's out of my control At least commit to love before you bring a kid to this world That's what I'm lookin' for, not in a rush but I might be Every night I spend alone, I'm losing faith in it, slightly