From the Start

I don’t wanna ride the wave I don’t really wanna stay You don’t even try to make Anything of this you just you shy away You know I’m not used to this New life new start new shoes to fit Don’t go so far that you used to get Those ways all day it’s a useless gift And you play your game and I’m through with it And I paid my dues yeah I’m doing this I gave my heart and soul just to ruin it Why you crossed me out like a crucifix You beat me down when I build you up You do just what you want and say I’m not enough You’re moving on, and it broke my heart I knew I couldn’t trust you way back from the start I see all the things you did to get in the way And you’re sitting there and now you ain’t got nothing to say Like you don’t even care about me never at all And you don’t even worry if you are seeing me fall And I don’t even wanna try to even the score I don’t get it I don’t get it always asking for more Got me down in the dumps doubting my past It’s messing me up I’m bound react I’ll never get back To the place that was great that we were before Turn away from the past and you slammed the door I had to burn the bridge had to cut off ties I had to get away from this vicious life That was dragging me down To the lowest low It's the norm for you but that’s not how it goes And there’s nothing more and now it shows That you’ve never been hurt before You beat me down when I build you up You do just what you want and say I’m not enough You’re moving on, and it broke my heart I knew I couldn’t trust you way back from the start I got bigger plans I gotta get on out I got better friends and imma see them now You lied to me tried so see past all the red flags Tried to be by your side kinda like bed tags But you ripped let you get off And you doing others thing got me pissed off And I thought that you had changed but it really is the same And I’m feeling all the pain from that last one And I moved on and we’re all done And I hope hurting now that it’s all gone I hope hurting now that it’s all gone You beat me down when I build you up You do just what you want and say I’m not enough You’re moving on, and it broke my heart I knew I couldn’t trust you way back from the start