To the Face

I take a blunt to the face Just to try to escape All the day to day things that always be stressing me out I'm getting faded because sobers complicated The thought of being present in the moments overrated I care less less about the what ifs sometimes it works Because I put my head down like I'm dead now and this shits a curse But I never know what's right F*ck sleep i'll stay up all night Keep away from my own damn mind Till I pass out and I'm feeling fine Its just something that I can't control Its just something that I can't control Its just something that I can't control Why the f*ck are we pretending That everybody gets a happy ending I know its different now still cant figure out What I'm missing now and it gets me down But you know I'm trying Over my head times flying Out of my mind just to find what I like When I'm here on the mic I'm fighting dying woah I do not see where this goes Finding my light in the road I've just been feeling one day I could make it out here from the bottom I'm Feeling so close But I am all on my own The path I've been on got me feeling alone I could just get up and drink from the bottle The rest of my life but I'm screaming out no Its just something that I can't control Its just something that I can't control Its just something that I can't control I keep on fighting My mind improvises I need to escape get away from these vices The feeling is fleeting Constantly needing More in my system I can't stop the bleeding I'm coming down from the highest of feelings Creating this low from the wounds that aren't heeling Repressed all these thoughts on the inside concealing Slowly but surly it all starts unreeling Its just something that I can't control Its just something that I can't control Its just something that I can't control