Sincerely Yours

Hey god, I'm at my lowest again I know you can't pick up the phone, I hope one day that you can My mind been running in these circles, barely talk to my friends It ain't the money nomo, it's this love I'm tend to spend I been flipping pages tryna see where I went wrong Came across some memories that I thought were long gone I felt so good, I ain't felt that in so long How can I feel empty? I just wanna feel at home And this little light of mine ain't got no more sunshine At least I made you smile in the end I guess that's alright Think bout you doin fore you do it, that's my advice You wanna know how I'm feeling? I can tell you and goes like This feeling just won't go away I tell myself just one more day I pray it's gonna be okay Sincerely yours, the one who stayed This feeling just won't go away I tell myself just one more day I pray it's gonna be okay Sincerely yours, the one who stayed The one who stayed The one who stayed The one who stayed Knockin on God's door like "who is it?" Guess who Know I got sum kinfolk but it's you I need to talk to And I'm surely hoping I got the heart to convince you That I need a break, I can't handle go through And I'm not to strongest soldier even though you might think it But maybe I just need sum rest or long break from drinking Tryna keep myself together, tryna keep my boat from sinking Spent long nights thinking, never sleeping, rarely blinking There so much on mental & I act I don't care I feel judged from every angle, every struggle that i wear It's been me from the start and it's me I can't bear The one I wanna let go, has always been here Filled up all my notebooks with words I can't say It's written on these walls and it's written on my face Can't finish up my chapter when I'm stuck on this page I ran out of my ink, I can't act out in my play That's that real shit Even shit from the past I still deal wit I'm killed with Band aid on the heart, my wounds don't heal quick I'm filled wit So many emotions, where the kill switch? I don't know how to cope with it I don't know how to spill it They ask me "how I'm doin?" same reply, "I'm all good" Act like I ain't seen the worst even though that I should Expressions on my face still the same, I'm smiling Sometimes I hope they see me breaking and find out that I'm lying This feeling just won't go away I tell myself just one more day I pray it's gonna be okay Sincerely yours, the one who stayed This feeling just won't go away I tell myself just one more day I pray it's gonna be okay Sincerely yours, the one who stayed The one who stayed The one who stayed The one who stayed