4am Again

Up late and the clock tickin It's 4 AM again Wide awake and I'm Contemplatin Where the endin is Replayin thoughts like Is it all in my head Crazy I think I'm I think I'm losing grip again 4 AM and the rain sounds Ain't putting me to sleep Train of thought speedin off Wondering how I'm a eat Can't find comfort in this bed So I rise to my feet Pacing back and forth Trying to find what it all means Grindin teeth and Now the doubt is creepin in Is it all worth it When I spit these words that I pen Or am I just wastin time Is anyone listening I know I ain't got it all But I feel like I got a lot to give Big heart with a lot of love But Is that enough Big dreams with no support Can make the journey tough I mean I got a few friends Thatll hype me up Appreciate em But I still Not sure I'll get to where I want Dead end job draining All my energy Depression got me low Shit might be the end of me Some times I wonder if it's Somthin I'll Pass in my genes hope not i don't want my kids To see the darkness I seen Up late and the clock tickin It's 4 AM again Wide awake and I'm Contemplatin Where the endin is Replayin thoughts like Is it all in my head Crazy I think I'm I think I'm losing grip again Is it all in my head Is it all in my head Is it all in my head I think I'm losing grip again The lack of sleep And all The hours lost The exhaustion i feel Expressed through countless yawns My mind keeps racing No signs that it'll pause I can't take it anymore Please god just make it stop I just wanna catch some Zs Wanna Count some sheep Live out a fantasy Inside a vivid dream But my anxiety shit Has got me tweakin Ain't spoke to so and so In so long maybe I'm the reason Or is it just That it's Cancer season And I been Wildin out so much They tell me I need Jesus I should pick up a bible and That I should read it But I Don't really know If I believe em Cuz I been there And I done that I said my prayers like Could you run me that Blessing that I been needin Cuz life got me stressin Broken and bleeding But I been stroking my ego like when she go And she deep throat Each day as a sequel Skip through Like Ya gave me the remote Puffin on that tree smoke Just To feel the vibe Of nappin on cloud Floatin across the sky A moment frozen in time Like the clock don't tic Screen glow in my eyes Can't decide which link To click Flip the script Take a drive Till flip the whip Bring it back So I can kick the shit Up late and the clock tickin It's 4 AM again Wide awake and I'm Contemplatin Where the endin is Replayin thoughts like Is it all in my head Crazy I think I'm I think I'm losing grip again I think I'm losing grip again I think I'm losing grip again