Can't Let My Guard Down

As a man When it come to my feelings I always feel like I'm supposed to have this warriors mentality I'm never posed to let shit get to me Bother me or phase me So I guess I just bottle everything up I try to open up Can't let my guard down Been blocking so long That shit is hard now I bottle emotions Feel weak if I show em At times I may slip Try my hardest to hold em I try to open up Can't let my guard down Been blocking so long That shit is hard now I bottle emotions Feel weak if I show em At times I may slip Try my hardest to hold em Remember shawty said I'm cute but too short to be dating Her loss but that surely aided in defenses created That was after the fact I was broken in fact It's like a virus on my heart corrupt feelings I'm hacked Something simple as that Would get me to crack Protection of how I'm feeling That was something I lack Realized my software was too soft and I wanted to change it I built a barrier for hardware whenever they bring it I'm well protected that go for any feelings I'm feeling Anger sadness grief fear got easy concealing There was some times when I cried Hate to admit it yet I still wipe the tears from my eyes There was some times I let them linger to the point that they dried Cause I'm a man full of pride That's some shit that I usually hide Sometimes when hiding my pain thats me screaming for love Under this tough guy act I be needing a hug K I try to open up Can't let my guard down Been blocking so long That shit is hard now I bottle emotions Feel weak if I show em At times I may slip Try my hardest to hold em I try to open up Can't let my guard down Been blocking so long That shit is hard now I bottle emotions Feel weak if I show em At times I may slip Try my hardest to hold em Supposed to be a stiff nigga We taught to show no bitch in us Even when it's hard to deal we stay dealing with all this shit in us Battered and bruised Got a thug it out attitude Some problems are huge It don't matter the magnitude What you know bout living your life And showing that you are tough Giving advice to who need it Inside shit fucking you up I lost my job but got up early pretending to go to work I found another Couldn't tell you how much a nigga was hurt Providing really bringing that pressure On bad terms and I did not need you giving me lectures And whenever my mother would yell at me I be fighting back my tears Weak emotions I was boxing that's that shit I had to clear as a kid At times I hate when I be feeling so ruined And wish I didn't have emotions but those make us all human Not emotionally detached really the complete opposite Got in my feelings quick so my heart adjusted by stopping it Yeah I try to open up Can't let my guard down That was after the fact I was broken in fact I try to open up Can't let my guard down That was after the fact I was broken in fact