12 Shots

My cup is filled with rum I fall cause I'm so drunk 12 shots go down so smooth I run, can't stand the truth My cup is filled to the brim with Jack, so full it spills when I sip it The sadness produced is still prolific Will I change my life or will I piss it away? Whiskey coat my bladder and my entrails Real damage to my health is what it entails Do I quit or not? I can't pick - heads, tails? Can't put my finger on it, it ain't written in braille It's written on the wall like graffiti in spray paint Forever alone, I know we share the same fate I know you with him but you ain't happy girl, save face Put my mind at ease and appease, placate My cup is filled with whiskey Take a bite, my heart's so gristly 12 shots go down like juice I run and hide from you My cup is spilling cause it's so full Of Vodka, swishing through my system, drown these old woes Shivering and panicking alone, it's so cold Don't let no one know, I've got to keep it low profile Take another swig of Jack Daniels Straight from the bottle until I can't stand up I fall apart like a cracked candle Thoughts drag me down like a goddamn anvil Hungover, I wake up by the toilet bowl Brain is cooking and I can feel it boiling slow Soaked in my sweat, sticking to these soiling clothes Party all by my lonesome, avoiding souls My cup is filled with rum I fall cause I'm so drunk 12 shots go down so smooth I run, can't stand the truth Another 12 shots of whiskey I ain't gonna live past fifty I don't see the point in shifting Everything's dull, cold and empty Another 12 shots of Vodka Will quickly f*ck up my posture Passed out drunk in the Mazda Why I keep drinking? That's a mind boggler Drink, drink, drink for the numbness I'm so gone, no need for a compass I ain't gonna lie, I'ma keep it one hundred All alone drunk, treat my room like a dungeon Drink, drink, drink for the f*ck of it Stench of alcohol on my breath is pungent 11 shots down, I could go for a dozen Won't listen to my gut because I don't trust it