Bottle in My Hands

I've got this bottle in my hands and I ain't bout to put it down I never had a chance all they ever do is put me down So many voices in my head, I'm getting overwhelmed by the sound Next to the toilet on my legs, I puke and fall asleep on the ground Bottle by my side, liquor in my cup Finna swallow all my pride, I sip and swig and chug I get lost inside my mind, I sink deep in this rut Peace is what I'm tryna find, think I really need some love right now I wish you could see This hell inside of me I wish I could breathe But there's no finding me I'm lost, I'm gone I'm not so strong I try to be What's inside of me? Pain and emptiness So much heaviness I want to escape it My mind's feeling vacant I've got this bottle in my hands and I ain't bout to put it down I never had a chance all they ever do is put me down So many voices in my head, I'm getting overwhelmed by the sound Next to the toilet on my legs, I puke and fall asleep on the ground Bottle in my hands, liquor in the shot glass Wobble when I stand, I hope I do not crash Toss all in my bed, mind racing and my thoughts fast Feel awful when I get up, mind aching and I've lost track of time I wish it would leave This weight that tied to me Time is what I need Restore the life in me I'm lost, I'm gone I'm always wrong Never right, I know The end of life's quite close Pain in my head won't quit So much emptiness I want to escape it But I just can't leave it