Hiding from Myself

You die slow, why you always gotta hide from me? Find hope, I'm here for you to confide in me Eyes closed, you need to open them and fly with me Why sulk? Pick yourself up and smile with me Live a little, don't hate yourself, just forgive a little Mental breakdown and suicide, you're somewhere in the middle Broken inside, you're really lost now it's official Get the pencil, I think we got some sick writtens to scribble Now why you holding back? What you lose your confidence You used to pull all-nighters just writing, spitting the bombest shit You used to be inspired and driven now you the opposite You need to save yourself from depression because your lost in it You ain't wrote a song in six months that you're proud of Let it spill out of the pen, quit being down punk You've lost it, I think the spark is gone Come on, put it back in place where your heart belongs Let me save you, I know you're drowning I want to help you, but you won't let me Let me save you, I know you're dying But I can't help you if you keep hiding You dig yourself into a deep hole, reach hell Until you're finally six feet below, sleep well Out of ammunition need to reload, need shells Low on ambition, I think I need more refills Pour another drink, better pour another shot How much lower can you sink? You are more than fucking lost I'm an asshole, so cold, how I come across Yet I can't sleep at night cause I'm drowning in my thoughts I wanna change, but I don't have the wherewithal Scared of hurting loved ones so I scare them off Don't wanna die, I just want this nightmare to stop But I'm exhausted that's why the knife tares the cloth Of my skin, it's sinking in, I'm far from happy Hide the pain behind my smile with the scars and that's weak I'm fucking crazy, probably why it's hard to love me I don't blame you, shit, man I hardly trust me Let me save you, I know you're drowning I want to help you, but you won't let me Let me save you, I know you're dying But I can't help you if you keep hiding Take another shot of vodka, it burns within Drowning in my sorrow, I don't think I deserve to swim Just when I think that I'm happy it hurts again I can't help it, man I always get nervous when I'm happy, I just know that something's gonna go wrong And it's getting harder and harder for me to hold on Force a fake smile and pretend I'm so strong But I'ma break character, I know that it won't be long I don't belong in this life, it's crystal clear Low key I really wanna disappear No energy to even cry, man, I miss the tears Don't like what I see when I look up in the mirror Save me, Kurt I need you to save me You're the only one that can do it, so please change me Living life like I'm asleep, come on awake me I even put my walls up with you, I feel crazy Let me save you, I know you're burning I want to help you, but you won't let me Let me save you, I know you're dying But I can't help you if you keep hiding