Mentally Unstable

I hate me so much drink myself numb Fallen on my face need some help up I wanna kill myself make it go away I'm scared that I'll never be okay I hate me so much drink myself numb Fallen on my face need some help up I wanna kill myself let the pain go Aware that I'm mentally unstable Mentally sick and empty Tell joy and pride no entry I wanna say goodbye and it's tempting These demons are living in my head rent free They got a selfish grin and it's menacing Put me down in my sleep so gently If I could take it all back, wouldn't have been me I'm spiraling into a frenzy I hate me so much drink myself numb Fallen on my face need some help up I wanna kill myself make it go away I'm scared that I'll never be okay Mentally unstable, since the day the put me into the cradle In this world there are demons and angels And I'm both so my soul gets entangled Lot of pain behind these eyes that are hazel Some of it could've even been fatal Sit and watch and I rot as the days go By, it's fucked, I'm addicted to the pain though Taking shots but the liquor don't help My side hurts, think I'm killing myself It's a miracle my liver don't fail It's time to pack up the ship and set sail Isolated, backing into my shell I hurt you but I really meant well Tried to get up, slipped and I fell My brain's hell and I'm sick of my cell I hate me so much drink myself numb Fallen on my face need some help up I wanna kill myself let the pain go Aware that I'm mentally unstable