Crossin' Contrails

She lays in bed with her pains and aches Fearing the pills that take pains away She cries and cries, let's the tears dry So many mistakes, so many regrets She shivers and shakes breaks out in sweats Hides under her comforter with no one to comfort her She looks at her feet, she smiles and laughs She's walked many feet,many miles and paths But many roads with many lows Two beautiful kids, two unusual dads An unusual split, two unusual paths She cries why did I ruin my life Crossin' contrails in the night Wondering if we'll see the light We're crossin' paths with lots of laughs Til' the crosshairs on our backs arrive Crossin' contrails in the night Wondering if we'll see the light We're crossin' paths with lots of laughs Til' the crosshairs on our backs arrive She had a marriage she thought was great Second baby in a carriage that brought her grace Two kids, a spouse, a dog, a house But she felt her spouse slowly turned into a dog Stayed quiet as a mouse while pushing through the fog But became ill, swallowed all the pain pills Her opticals hide the sight of her spouse Hospitalized, taken from her house Almost died as she tried to hide But after round two of her surfeit She was found doomed over her kids She lost custody and lost trust and she Speculates everyday, "Will they ever trust in me" Crossin' contrails in the night Wondering if we'll see the light We're crossin' paths with lots of laughs Til' the crosshairs on our backs arrive Crossin' contrails in the night Wondering if we'll see the light We're crossin' paths with lots of laughs Til' the crosshairs on our backs arrive Now it's been some time since she's seen her daughter Brings tears to her eyes thinking about the father Saying "mommy is a bad person, you can't see her" and that's hurting And eating her up and beating her up With these scars in her heart that's leaving her stuck In a place she calls her grave Afraid, ashamed, and in pain Refused the pills that the doctor wrote her No more refills, she's thought it over Now it's been a blue moon since she's consumed A sedative / medicine now she's gotten sober Deals with discomfort cause she feels comfort Anticipates for the day to see her daughter's face Yesterday is in the past, today is not the same So give the lady a break cause people change Crossin' contrails in the night Wondering if we'll see the light We're crossin' paths with lots of laughs Til' the crosshairs on our backs arrive Crossin' contrails in the night Wondering if we'll see the light We're crossin' paths with lots of laughs Til' the crosshairs on our backs arrive