Angels' Lullaby (feat. PATx)

I think I've been down this road before But it's a little different now It's a little different now Don't think I could miss it now With all the writing on the wall And I don't care if I'm walking alone I kinda like it better that way No one else to get in my way My hands are in my pockets Just so I won't roll the dice I know I'm scared Cause I've got butterflies And I can almost hear the sounds of the angels calling They're singing softly to me, a lullaby So I can close my eyes I'll stare at the sun, but I can't look you in the eye I'm more afraid of what you'll think than I am of even dying I'm numb I'm tired And I don't want to cause you pain I just think that I am better off a memory A memory My hands are in my pockets Just so I won't roll the dice I know I'm scared Cause I've got butterflies And I can almost hear the sounds of the angels calling They're singing softly to me, a lullaby So I can close my eyes I used to I used to I used to think everything in life had an answer No wonder I would get it wrong But I don't care, and I don't give a f*ck Because that's what always gets said in songs Little ever gets said at all Let this motherfucking barrel talk Extra pinch of this Fentanyl And I bet I could get to God And discuss How I thought That prayer Was useless You hold out Your hand but To some it's Abusive I heard some Advice was So simple But used it I switched up My diet And worked on Improvement And found out Bout zen through These herbal Infusions And flushed out My mental Of all this Pollution If I ain't The hottest I'll just be The coolest And now I'm shootings for the stars instead of my conclusion My hands are in my pockets Just so I won't roll the dice I know I'm scared Cause I've got butterflies And I can almost hear the sounds of the angels calling They're singing softly to me, a lullaby So I can close my eyes