No Man's Land (feat. Melody Stolpp)

Just got your last letter in the mail all the way from Blythe, California, cell block 'J-1' It's my brother's birthday and he's trying not to hate cha But pops, all he got was some ink and paper Calling a special number like I'm hanging with ya Passing the phone from me to my brother and sister Fuckin' pissed but I try not to diss ya I don't know if I'd punch ya or say I'd miss ya If you were out soon, I'd take a while to earn your trust Probably never forgive you for the shit you done to us Abandoning your girl and kids for a quick pay Then going to prison, leaving us this way Our mom's a junkie, we not even with her Whether she overdosed, we don't even know for sure Fortunately, we're with family and doing well But not sure I want you free or rot in Hell. Now we're long gone and I waited too long Want to find my way home but I don't belong Now we're long gone and I waited too long Want to find my way home but I don't belong It's month 3 and year 4 After all this time, don't even know me anymore Can't fuckin' believe those assholes bailed That was a full proof plan that couldn't fail They had nothing to lose, I had 3 kids Could've made ends meet but now I got nothing to give I'm so sorry, I'm missing your birthdays First walks, schools and holidays Just tried to make our lives a bit better I tried to keep this family closer together Hope you forgive me if I make it outta dodge I promise I'm a change my life, I'll find God Whatever it takes, do it all for you For your mother, sister and little brother too I'll make it to you, I swear I will Just gotta make it out and hope I don't get killed Now we're long gone and I waited too long Want to find my way home but I don't belong Now we're long gone and I waited too long Want to find my way home but I don't belong It's been 10 years and now we all grown Through the bullshit, we now make it on our own We only ever saw you with shackles in prison Only in our dreams, where we made a living Time has passed now, you got grandsons You should've seen them, they're so sweet and handsome You were still there for the worse or better I still got all my old birthday letters The family is still in good spirits Somewhere out there, I hope you hear this I guess in another way you are now free No need to worry about work, emotion or disease When you left jail, heard you married again Heard she was the love of your life, your best friend You being locked up, we may not have been the same But you're always apart of me, that's never gonna change Now we're long gone and I waited too long Want to find my way home but I don't belong Now we're long gone and I waited too long Want to find my way home but I don't belong