Worthless

Why the f*ck was I even born I feel deformed Torn apart, feel like a demon without the horns I try to cheer myself up and keep myself in check But I still don't seem to gain any type of respect Just pondering my death, holding a blade against my neck When am I never not an emotional wreck? My dad's a deadbeat and my mom's dead from alcoholism I feel like it's a rhythm, like I'm a be there with 'em Like I'm gonna end up either dead or broken Will this be the way that I end up going? Hoping for the best but the worst is just provokin' It's like life is yelling at me to slit my throat and.. My fuckin' life's a book but no one bothers to open Wanting to coast through life and start boastin' About money and fame, go big like a freight train Wanting to take this game by storm but I'm stuck in the damn rain Is living in this planet really necessary The more I think about that, the less it's scary The more I think about life, the more I end up in fury I have an ugly reflection like I repeated Bloody Mary Lord knows what's wrong with me Is it really wrong for me to think about dying It's just really longing me I wanna be strong and take on the world head on But there's times where I wished that I was gone F*ck, I feel like there's no room left for me in the world I belong in a tomb Why did I get out of my mama's womb Just by death itself I'm being consumed, I ain't trippin' I'm leaving soon My doom is sealed, this feels too fuckin' real I may be eating my last meal Just wanna get through this living ordeal So lemme just finish this feast and then wrap up this fuckin' spiel Lemme meet Christ in a few seconds Death is a blessing, I've already learned this lesson I'm left alone anyway, this is it This may be the last verse that I ever get to spit Put me in the eternal, fiery pit I wanna feel third degree burning skin Endless suffering and wrath, the full fuckin' grit Bodies inside out while blood endlessly drips In the pool of fire, I take a dip While Mephistopheles chuckles as he sits So as I pull the trigger, you hear from my lips Why continue here, I ain't really worth shit