5AM in Amsterdam

Yea Keep quiet never speak on no man Who am I to judge, complain or condemn I make profit off judgement directed towards me, I'm different than them You see men walking around with baggage, I'm no different than them Nothing new to me, having different smears on my name They talk and talk like they got something to gain Like I could give a f*ck about the next thing anybody gone say I got one goal and that's to be on top of my game We sit and talk about money and how rich we all wanna be Discuss short-term goals like what we'll accomplish this week Are you applying principles needed consecutively To be a better man than the one you aspire to be Some come around like "money don't make you happy, I doubt" I'm like "I'm already happy the f*ck you talking about" We all got shit on our plates we all gotta worry about Except for fam and finance nothing's worth stressing about More come around like "don't you have a backup plan set" Like I would rather be dead than settle for anything less I'm given one life and I don't give a f*ck bout what's next Everybody don't make it and I guess that's for the best, that's double meaning Yea Ain't no way around it My mom's always like "find somebody to talk about it" "Cause I know you got problems and you don't talk about it" A mother knows I can tell, I never complain about it Dark place, a lonely state Million thoughts and voices invade my private space If I'm not drinking at night, I would feel my heartbeat raise I can finally say that I'm in a solid state Yea I take responsibility for everything that happens to me You seek attention and approval when you talk about me Whether you love me or hate me, it makes no difference to me You live in fantasy thinking that you got leverage on me Long distance relationship with the people that I love the most The shit a man would do to reach all his goals It gets discouraging out when you walk a lonely road Just keep your head up and have faith and don't lose your hope I got people keeping me in line And they'll address me everytime I'm acting out of line I know exactly who's concerned about how I feel inside I know who wants me to fall and who wants to see me thrive Yea Lost relationships, people I feel like I should reach out to them Pride that holds me back from reaching out to them I know I'm stubborn in ways, when it comes to making amends Lack of interest and reasons to try and reason with them Wide awake, I take a walk outside, 5AM in Amsterdam Light up a cigarette, it's -1 out I talk to something, whatever it is, it hears me call out And ask for love as they get close and I kick them all out Half a bottle down, I'm running out of cigarettes now My mind's not quiet enough to sleep, so I'll go the next round Keep people out, I need to be alone to figure shit out Talk to the wall with all the lights out, as I sit on the couch And seriously, when you're down no one takes you seriously And as you're walking forward, make sure that you do it carefully I lost count of who out here dreaming of ending me Sometimes I lose means to stay sain and not move revengefully No mercy in a world without fairness and justice Make sure you level leverage to a higher abundance Rise up and stay immune to a state of redundance It's unable for the opps to confront it Yea