Life is Hopeless (Altered Ending)

Why is life better when I go to sleep Why does it feel like cancer in my head Yo, I wake up and it feels like i'm dead I feel like I'm drowning in Challenger Deep Life is hopeless I can't find happiness anymore When I think I'm at my peak, I fall back down to the floor I look at myself and I see failure and weakness Look at the pain in my face, man I'm so worthless I can't go through the day without breaking down I try to crack a smile, but my mood just beats me down I be breathing heavily and I have these palpitations I can barely think straight and I lose my concentration I'm losing a battle against myself I go to bed wishing for a permanent asleep But before I go to sleep, I just start to weep Cause there's no need to go to heaven, man I'm already in hell Life is hopeless What did I ever do to deserve this Smile on my face while I'm mentally suffering People try to be comforting, but no chance of recovering If you wanna talk, then you can always come and talk to me Who's actually gonna listen It's not gonna make a difference A whole lifetime of pain has been accumulating Building up, building up It's building up that tension Too many inconveniences in life, it's so overwhelming It's hard to talk about it cause people say I'm just looking for attention I started turning to alcohol to numb the pain Don't care if ethanol's bad for me It'll mellow my brain I'm considering cutting myself Yeah you can call me crazy It's gotten to the point where I don't think about my safety Life is hopeless and I know that nobody cares I'm so broken that there's no way I can be repaired I have these dark thoughts and, no lie, I'm very scared Got so many visions of my death, but I think I'm prepared I can't stand feeling all this pain within me I can't stand it What did I ever do to deserve this Come on I can't do this I don't wanna live like this I have to lie and say that I'm fine I wanna get better, man. I'm tryin' But there's no reason in living I wanna put and end to my suffering Everyday I just brake down and cry Come on! Just kill me, I JUST WANNA DIE THIS IS IT LET'S MAKE IT A REALITY RIGHT NOW Y'ALL GOT TEN SECONDS Give me one reason why I shouldn't end it all right now One reason why I shouldn't dig my throat out One reason why I shouldn't cut my vocal chords so I can't scream anymore My presence is not even important anyways There will be no difference if I live or die Y'all are running out of time Give me one reason GIVE ME ONE REASON GIVE ME ONE REASON AAAH I had no choice I had to do it There was no way in hell I was going to suffer yet another day No way I was gonna spend another day of feeling more and more pain within me I was down I needed help I publicly cried for help But where were you Where were you when I needed you the most I fought such a long long battle against myself Life was beating me down and still beat me when I was on the ground helpless But then finally gave up There was simply no point in my life I'm just a pointless waste of space with no future There was just no place for me in this world You guys go Go ahead and live your lives It's not like you'll remember me anyways I'll either be rotting six feet underground or in ashes Life is hopeless