Trauma

Trauma Brr Trauma, trauma Yeah Trauma Trauma, trauma Used to ride around with shooters had to keep them close to me 20 Bands up in my pocket that's how it was supposed to be We seen things when we was kids that we wasn't supposed to see Now we dealing with the trauma my mama opposing me All this drama in my life got my trauma exposing me Chasing dollar signs and women I been in the coldest streets Grew up livin in this sin and this isn't just so to speak Had to choose between life and death I wisely chose a beat Now I'm living life by faith I was saved by His grace (Grace) Guilty verdict on my name Jesus handled my case (Case) Took my place up on that cross so He altered my fate I was found mixed with the loss I moved to a new space (Yeah) Jesus promise when I die He prepared me a place (A new place) And I ain't holding up no burden don't carry no weight (Don't carry weight) Man I was moving way too fast like I married my dates (Facts) So there was many times I crashed while running this race Now this ain't easy (Nah) Homicides on TV's (On TV) Traumatized and queasy (Queasy) Monetize the crime now we creating a new species Wishy washy cats move with the wind I call em breezy (Breezy) I be low key I'm on the scene but you can't see me Ughh I'm dealing with this again (Again) I'm taking these drugs again (Again) I can't fall in love again (Again) Trauma, trauma I'm on a percocet (Percocet) My brother got merked again (Again) I'm feeling real cursed again (Again) Trauma, trauma Im taking pills for the pain (Pain) I'm just tryna numb all the pain (Pain) I wish I could turn off my brain (Brain) Trauma, trauma What is a soul with no peace? (Peace) I might just give in to defeat (Defeat) Cause no one will listen to me (Ugh) They be selling they soul for a repost Living in debt with like three notes In way too deep like a deep stroke So you swallow that pill like a deep throat (Facts) You living depressed all the days of your life Cause you tryna keep up with the people And you wonder how they could see all of your flaws When you hide em they peek through the peep hole Now you taking these drugs and they lethal And that high come in parts like a sequel Ya mind full of thoughts and they evil Tryna carry this weight but no beast mode I been told you Jesus could carry that burden He'll cover you up like a pea coat But your heart is so hard and your heart is so cold Like you outside and wearing a cheap coat I got saved and I'm blessed with amazing grace God helped me see better days You just want your problems to fade away So you taking them drugs in all different ways Man let me correct it (Bao!) I am not here just give you advice what I say Don't you try to deflect it (Bao!) I been through the furnace I been through the fire I'm alive to show you how to quench it My mind got through all the deception I been through all kinds of rejection Too many times I selected the wrong direction at the intersection The devil catching all these interceptions I really know what it's like to fail But you working hard just to beat all the trauma And get to the top then they gotta respect it I been through the fire and came out perfected I been with the lions and came out protected I been through the trial came out of there flexing Felt like I was dying came out resurrected Now I'm raising hell! The devil he mad cause he know I got nothing but stories to tell I'ma tell the story bout how he fell I'ma tell the stories bout how I felt When I was in the dirt Feeling like I had no worth Feeling all alone in the earth I was in the trenches Bouncing back and forth from church I felt like my life cursed They thought it was easy Dealing with the pain on repeat I gotta God who sees me I gotta God who sees me El Roi He sees me Ughh I'm dealing with this again (Again) I'm taking these drugs again (Again) I can't fall in love again (Again) Trauma, trauma I'm on a percocet (Percocet) My brother got merked again (Again) I'm feeling real cursed again (Again) Trauma, trauma I'm taking pills for the pain (Pain) I'm just tryna numb all the pain (Pain) I wish I could turn off my brain (Brain) Trauma, trauma What is a soul with no peace? (Peace) I might just give in to defeat (Defeat) Cause no one will listen to me (Ugh) Trauma, trauma Trauma, trauma Trauma, trauma Trauma, trauma Trauma